Looking back and moving FORWARD!

Christmas being a couple days away I cant help but think about last years Christmas, and the Christmas before that. Why? Because the last 2 Christmas' weren't exactly Merry. Christmas 2009 I was 7.5 months pregnant, just moved back home from LA, was alone, and didn't even give two shirts about this Holiday.

Christmas 2010, I had a 10 month old, still alone, I was a complete emotional wreck from all twisted, effed up shit I had been dealing with my new baby, and my BD drama. The last two years I didnt have  Christmas tree, I didnt decorate, I didnt bake cookies... I didnt do anything but enjoy the company of my family when I was pregnant, and then my daughter on her first Christmas! Here we are 2011, and I feel like this is going to be a GREAT, AMAZING Christmas! I have a 22 month old who has been nothing but a blessing to have as my daughter! I wont be alone FINALLY! I got a real christmas tree! I actually enjoyed shopping, and prepping for the BIG DAY!  I guess Im just really thankful for all of the hardships I experienced and got through! I can honestly look back at the all those moments and events from the past 2 years and not even feel that hurt anymore! I look back and am really proud of myself for finally standing on my own two feet and doing what was best for me and best for my daughter. I am finally in such a good place mentally, psychically, and emotionally.
a couple flashback pics!

 I am so excited to spend this Holiday with the people I love and the people who have been so supportive and there for me! I dont even "want" anything for Christmas for myself, this year was about giving back and reaching out to others who are not as fortunate as some of us! I posted awhile back about the gift drive for 80+ low income children we were sponsoring to provide gifts for, well I cant even begin to express how Amazing it was to be able to give a gift to each and every one of those kids who some have NEVER had a Christmas! It melted my heart to watch their faces light up with excitement! I want to thank EVERYONE who helped my roomate/best friend Kim
with providing gifts, and donating on behalf of the cause. It was a great turn out! Thats what Christmas is all about.